That's enough sitting on the fence For the fear of breaking damsTime to close another chapter in the sweeping epic that is my love life. The lawyer and I decided that things just weren't going to work out and so we amicably decided to split.
Our relationship was never all that serious (we were never exclusive) but I was spending a lot of time with her and it had gotten to the point where we had to decide whether or not to take the next step. We decided against it.
My thoughts leading up to this were similar to those leading up to my eventual break-up with my last really serious girlfriend (H-bomb). In both situations I didn't have too many problems with the person I was with, it was a matter of not experiencing the right sort of "connection". That profound bond that keeps two people together for the long-run just didn't seem to be there.
The lawyer was fun, open-minded, and has a great overall attitude. I liked spending time with her but at the end of the day I couldn't see myself falling in love.
I'm confident that this was the right decision (plus she was thinking along the exact same lines so it clearly wasn't in the cards), but there is a splinter in the back of my mind that's troubling me. It certainly seems that the girls I have been most interested in lately are the ones that are running away. I really don't want to be one of those people who only want the person who they can't have. I hope this absence of "connection" that I experienced with the Lawyer is real and not just my way of fooling myself -- a way of putting a more acceptable face on the whole situation.
Anyway I'm back to square one now. The whirlwind dating scene of the last month seems to have built itself to this less-than-spectacular little "thud" rather than a glorious crescendo.
I suppose that I now have more time for video games.
-B
Labels: girls, Lissa
